Oh! Read this one :o Because this is about ME.
Saturday, 2 June 2012 | 10:57 | 0 mustaches
Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, isn't me. And behind my smile is everything you'll never understand. I hate for being myself. I hate my smile because everyday it is a fake smile. To tell you the truth, I've just been avoiding everything. When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget. No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do, somebody hates me.
I always look like I’m happy..
I try to forget all my sadness..
I pretend like nothing happen..
and I do a fake smile..
So, anyone wont see me crying inside..
My fake smile can hide all the pain..
So, I can look like I’m a stronger one..
But actually I’m not..
I try to forget all my sadness..
I pretend like nothing happen..
and I do a fake smile..
So, anyone wont see me crying inside..
My fake smile can hide all the pain..
So, I can look like I’m a stronger one..
But actually I’m not..
Sometimes when I say "I'm okay",
I want someone to look me in the eyes,
hug me tight,
and say, "I know you are not".
I want someone to look me in the eyes,
hug me tight,
and say, "I know you are not".
If One Day.....
If one day you feel like crying.
Call me....
I don't promise that I will make you laugh.
But I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away.
Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop.
But I can run with you.
If one day you don't want to listen to anyone.
Call me....
I promise to be there for you.
And I promise to be very quiet.
If one day you call me;
and there is no answer.
Come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you. :')
If one day you feel like crying.
Call me....
I don't promise that I will make you laugh.
But I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away.
Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop.
But I can run with you.
If one day you don't want to listen to anyone.
Call me....
I promise to be there for you.
And I promise to be very quiet.
If one day you call me;
and there is no answer.
Come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you. :')
I'm just going to fake a smile.
I'm gonna laugh very loudly.
I'm gonna hold back the tears.
I'm gonna tell everyone i'm happy.
Because I want to see who will notice
that I am actually not "fine".
I'm gonna laugh very loudly.
I'm gonna hold back the tears.
I'm gonna tell everyone i'm happy.
Because I want to see who will notice
that I am actually not "fine".
I yells because I cares.
I cries because I frustrated.
I smiles out of no where because I'm thinking of you, even if you're already here.
I scrunches my face because I'm about to explode.
I hits you because I wants to touch you.
I stares at you because i'm infatuated.
I calls every half hour because I misses you.
I lectures you because I'm boss not mom.
I kisses you because I just wants to.
I ask questions because I'm curious, not to be annoying.
I wants to know where you are just to be with you.
I calls, to hear your voice.
I walks beside you to hold your hand.
I sits close to you to lean on your shoulder.
I stands in front of you because I needs a hug.
Truth is, I love You.
I cries because I frustrated.
I smiles out of no where because I'm thinking of you, even if you're already here.
I scrunches my face because I'm about to explode.
I hits you because I wants to touch you.
I stares at you because i'm infatuated.
I calls every half hour because I misses you.
I lectures you because I'm boss not mom.
I kisses you because I just wants to.
I ask questions because I'm curious, not to be annoying.
I wants to know where you are just to be with you.
I calls, to hear your voice.
I walks beside you to hold your hand.
I sits close to you to lean on your shoulder.
I stands in front of you because I needs a hug.
Truth is, I love You.
You can't give up, even if all you do is cry.
Swallow your tears,
stand up on your own two feet,
& show them that you aren't giving up.
No matter what.
Swallow your tears,
stand up on your own two feet,
& show them that you aren't giving up.
No matter what.
So korg, actually kan, aku, tengah, STRESS. Eh eh, asyik STRESS jee. Kenapa la en.. Haha :'D .. Suka pulak aku dgn STRESS ni hah.. Syg lak aku kt dia.. Happy jee.. Nak tau kenapa? Sebab bnda ni setia gila dgn aku. Everyday, every time, every second, dia mesti mai kat aku. Awat? Hangpa jeleskah? Hehe. Jgn jeles.. Nnti sedih pulak aku.. Hmm.. Apa apa? Oh.. Nak reason pasai pa aku STRESS ka?? La.. Awat tak habaq awal2.. Ok ok. Meh meh.. Hang duduk situ diam2 naa? Haaaa. Camniee, eh! Malas lak nak cerita.. :'> .. Hihi.. Alah, tak mau la majok. Senyum! Eh, jgn wat Fake Smile lak mcm aku ni.. Haihh.. Yelaa.. Sebenaqnya, aku ni STRESS. Ok? Dah tau dah? Belum?! Laa.. Pasai pa lak? Oh. Reason. Hiii~ Alah, tak mau cerita la wat masa skrg ni. Nnti2 la aku cerita kt hangpa semua.. Naa? Haah. Mcm tu la. Tak mau majok2, tak mau wat Fake Smile.Aku je yg boleh wat Fake Smile :'>..
Yeah, I'MnotFINE! :'D
